Wednesday, September 26, 2007,
5 more days to Children's Day, to put it in a nicer way.
i guess this is the first ever time i'm ever getting stressed?
or even in a mild case.
i never really studied for PSLE or any other exams or tests for that matter.
i guess, yeah, i studied, at least in sec school. but. i never EVER got stressed.
i keep on telling myself that this is not the end, this is not the worst, there's still next year, with all the prelims and Os. and i shouldnt be getting so stressed.
usually, i get stressed only on the night before the first paper, and cant sleep, but. i'll still be able to do it.
but. this time, i dunno.
i guess stress is a good thing. i feel the rush to start studying?
i studied and studied like shit, and im still not ready.
its 5 days. 5 days. approximately 100 hours from this moment i'm blogging.
shit wad am i doing here?
rawrr.
:/
you disappoint me.
if you didnt know.
i know there's a sort of chinese hirachy.
i know.
somethings, are just not meant to be done. by you.
but. please.
you want perfection, yet, you dont lead by example.
you want help and understanding, yet, you dont lead by example.
kids learn through example. im a kid. i need example.
the small little things you let me see everyday.
just disappoints me time and time again.
i try to forget the past. but your actions just. makes me think.
you want trust and love. i want them too.
i try to understand you.
but sometimes, its just too. hard.
your reasons are just too. unreasonable.
i cant help but compare.
and it pains me.
:/
ok. i shouldnt be doing this.
blogging. got told off today for blogging and reading people's blog.
sighs.
i have 4 more subjects to choing.
rawrrr.
i have 5 days.
RAWRRR.
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studying history does make people go mad. 3 hours just. drives people crazy.
Sarah went mad, Grace went mad, I went mad.
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mugging chem tonight(:
i dun like the word mugging.
sounds like. making a cup.
mugging.
lol.
5:32 AM